Confessions of a happy person

I was always the type of person to fall too soon too fast. So I could never understand how people could enjoy spending time with a person, like them, be attracted, and care about them but not be sure about anything more than friends. But for the last few months it made a lot more sense to me...  And it's kind of nice because I know I won't get hurt Except I also know that you don't fall in love this way.

This week's post is a little late... I've been busy and tired and let's just face it, happier. Which is good for me but bad for my blog. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ This trip I took was exactly what I needed in a lot of different ways. It gave me a chance to get away from all the things that were stressing me out and be able to figure out what was really going on. It's funny how we don't realize that we're going through something until we get out of it. It's like, you don't know how lost you are until you figure out where it is you were actually trying to go because now you have some point of reference.  What I'm trying to say is, I didn't realize these past months what I was really struggling with was my own self-identity. Like I was discovering all these new things about myself and trying to let go of the negative self-images but somewhere in the process I think I lost sight of who I

This past year, I have been struggling with figuring out and trying to be the kind of person that I wanted to be.  But being in the country where my parents grew up and surrounded by family reminded me: That I am my mother and father's daughter That I am my parents in ways that I'm sometimes not even aware of And that they really are special and amazing people So if I'm anything like them Then I don't have to worry... That it's not "right" or "wrong"  It just makes sense And it's how I know in my heart that I'll be OK. 

Life really works in mysterious ways.  On the third day into our trip we were visiting the Long Shan Temple and I was inspired by the people praying there to also make a few prayers myself. I consider myself more spiritual than religious and lately I had started to pray in order to remind myself the things I'm grateful for and to help with the things that are bothering me.  Long Shan Temple While I was there, I boiled it all down and came up with the four most important focuses for myself which I also wanted to reflect on as like some sort of theme for my trip. Or maybe like my New Year's Resolutions even.  They were:  Family- for their safety and happiness Strength- to have faith that it'll be alright Patience- for myself and the journey Peace- to live without judgement, anger, or fear During my trip, I was able to reflect on a lot of different things that were bothering me this last year and I felt more secure about having to deal with my strugg