Confessions of a happy person

I've written posts about what I call my "funks"  (depression just sounds too serious for me) before but just to summarize, these are periods of days where I have very low motivation, overthink just about everything, and generally have pretty low self-esteem... along with the physical symptoms of stress too . One way I'll know I'm in a funk is that I'll often feel like I'm on the verge of crying. I used to have them quite frequently but now not as much. But I'll still have one now and then and it'll catch me off guard. They still suck just as much  but I've learned to manage them so that at least they don't get in the way of my life. Over the past year, I've picked up a list of things I do to manage the funks: 1. The number one most helpful thing in managing my negative thoughts is my planner.  It helps me remember and organize the million-and-one things I need to do so I don't feel so overwhelmed. It also helps me stay focused...

I know I'm posting a lot less than I used to and for the most part I'm doing a lot better.  Except when I'm not.  And when I'm not, the most I can do is just cope with it and wait until the funk passes.  Which.... can.... feel..... like.... it..... takes..... forever.....  During the funk, I have to make lists of exactly what I'm going to do and what time (including easy things like going grocery shopping). Then I just commit (in other words, not overthink) to getting one thing done at a time. And it really helps because just like downward spirals, I sometimes have upward spirals.  I'll get one thing done and feel accomplished and move on to the next, and eventually I'll not feel like in a funk anymore.  BUT... sometimes that one thing can still be too much because something didn't go the way I planned and I know it's not a big deal but whyyyy and I just get overwhelmed and feel even worse.... So I just have to accept that ...