A two-year update

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In one more month, it'll have been two years since I started this blog.

I keep apologizing for not posting as frequently, so I'm not going to make any more false promises! (I think the last time I posted I said I would post at least once a month).

In any case, I still like having this blog and I still think it's important that we have discussions about mental healthiness.

I honestly believe that most people will go through a period of depression at one point or another in their life-time. And I think it's those rough times that will help us understand when someone else is going through something similar.

I definitely notice more and more people talking about their mental issues which I think just confirms that these are things that everyone struggles with. I also think it's important that I be a part of this conversation because I'm sure people look at me and wouldn't think that I struggle with anxiety and depression.

But despite that, I still think I'm a fairly regular person dealing with normal life issues. It just helps to know that I sometimes have these tendencies and to also develop coping mechanisms.

One thing that has been giving me anxiety lately is feeling like I'm not going in to lab early enough. I usually go in anywhere from 8:30-10:30. Which I think is a reasonable time considering that most people don't get in until 9:30.

But basically, if I'm not at work yet, even if I'm working on something at home, I'm feeling anxious. For no reason really. My boss doesn't care when I get in. My undergrad doesn't care. I've been productive, so no one cares. Except for me...

I think it's mainly because I'm getting ready to graduate in 2018 so I'm feeling the pressure to finish.

I've been having more social anxiety lately too which I'm not sure why, but it could just be from being tired :(

I mainly cope by trying not to listen to my thoughts. I'll take a second to breathe and relax and try to just let the thought float away. Some days are harder than others but what mainly helps is to remember that I just have to wait and the hard days will pass.

 They've all passed so far.

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