What keeps me humble and gives me hope

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I may be pretty, young, smart, talented, successful, fortunate, popular...

Or crazy, stupid, failing, lonely, anxious, depressed, hurting...

But nothing lasts forever.

Which is why I try to appreciate the good and let go of the bad

While preparing the best I can and be patient for the future


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